Face-to-Face With Jesus

“He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.” (John 14:21)

I have actually spoken to Jesus face-to-face. Actually, you will surprised at how this goes, but I’m sure you can believe it, since you are a fellow believer. One night, after a time of very intense and “soul searching” prayer, I had a supernatural dream from God. In the dream, I actually “met myself,” as it were, as a 12-year-old boy at school, in some sort of classroom context and the teacher was there and so were some other children walking around in the classroom, playing and having fun.

I got a glimpse of one of the boys, who seemed to be very muscular and he didn’t have his shirt on. I tried to see, “Could this be me?” You see, I was “searching” for myself, and my identity at that time, you might say. But the person I saw was barechested and very muscular — surely this was not like me! Then, in the very next frame of the dream, I found him, I found the one I was so desperately searching for! Suddenly we were staring face-to-face with each other! It was this 12-year-old boy. He was me! At that point, I actually “entered into” the dream and began to talk with him … it was awesome!

I said to him, “I love you.” It was an expression of a deep love that I had towards this little boy (but I didn’t love myself for “who I was” at the present moment because I felt deeply rejected and unaccepted on the inside. I had had become unemployed, and terribly diseased, and had suffered many attempts to “gain” acceptance, only to find out that my attempts seemed vain, and rife with a spirit of rejection all over me). To my surprise, the boy spoke to me! He answered me back, in a very gentle and compassionate way, with these wonderful words: “I love you, too.” I was deeply moved by the experience. Something on the deep inside of me was changed!

The Following Day

The next day, I went for a walk and I was talking with Jesus. I had a lingering, unanswered question about the events of that dream. I said to him, “Lord, I don’t understand how could my conversation with myself in my dream last night BE SO MOVING? When the boy (“myself”) said “I love you” to me, it really touched me. It was life-changing. Something in my very spirit has been changed and altered. Something of real love has entered into me. Please, explain it!! I’m so eager to know what really happened!

Instantly — within just a flash — the Lord made the answer plain and simply to me, and it all of a sudden “clicked”. Here is what the Lord showed me: “That was not yourself that you were speaking with last night in that dream … it was Me!”

Bam! It hit me like a ton of bricks! I had met Jesus “face-to-face” in my dream. He disguised himself for the purpose of reaching me and loving me in a way that I coudln’t or wouldn’t receive otherwise. It was one of “his ways” of reaching me! He did what Paul said, he became “all things to all men” so that he might win me with his love — even though it was disguised at first, and yet, he met me in my spirit! (Jesus DOES diguise himself sometimes, you know. This is plain from the Scriptures, in which it says, “Their eyes were opened, and then the recognized him.”) He purposely took on a “covering” that I could relate with. There was a spiritual interaction that took place. Jesus “did it.” He “won me” through those words and he reached deep into my spirit — that place that I had been so used to closing off to anybody’s and everybody’s love!

You know something, that is what the incarnation is all about. It is about God — who is all powerful, all knowing, and all loving — this huge, amazing, and wonderful God who created us — taking the form of flesh and blood — someone we can relate with (Jesus) — and loving us in manners untold. In fact, the cross of Jesus Christ is God’s “ultimate” display of love towards us. Have you received his love into your heart and begun to live for him, by faith?

“Lord, show us more of yourself. Love us Lord and let us see you for who you really are, this God of love and acceptance for all who will simply reach out, touch the hem of your garment, and begin to live for you. Help us to relate with you. Take us, and make us yours, Lord. We want to be more like you. You are amazing and wonderful, and we love you! Amen.”