Years ago, when I awoke, I was overcome by pain and affliction in both my physical body, as well as in other parts of my being. I will describe these “other parts” as simply my “soul and spirit” — those parts of me that are connected in with the eternal realm, and are not simply of the earth (our spirits are born “dead” according to the Bible, and are “made alive in Christ” at the moment we are born again into a new, and dynamic relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. This is an act of our faith, and simply happens when we confess and receive Christ as Lord and Savior of our lives on account of what Christ did in suffering on our behalf on the cross).
At that time, I was in pain. I was in agony, so to speak. Now you have to appreciate the power of prayer, and God’s grace, and God’s gifts, at this point, because, it is only through means like these that I was able to “see properly” to be able to really discern what was going on. I prayed. And I prayed some more. I knew that, as a Christian, God desired to bless His people with peace. But I did not have peace. I had pain and affliction. I was being overcome by something in the spiritual realm. I wanted to know what it was, but I wasn’t quite sure!
Something was speaking to me (I believe it was God). “Pursue this thing. Don’t settle for pain and affliction when you can have My comfort and assurance. Right now you don’t have it and you need it.” So I prayed.
I felt the Lord speaking this very clear word to me, “Something is blocking you. You can have much more peace than that.” I could almost “see” that something was blocking me! I did not sense any panic or dread. I was simply assured that in the midst of the affliction, that God had the answer, and that I didn’t need to settle for being in the midst of this affliction when, in fact, God had peace for me.
I continued to pray.
As I kept praying about it, and being “open and honest” with God about what I was feeling (and trying to follow His leading as He presented that to as I prayed), all of sudden I remembered something that I had dreamt during the nighttime! In the dream, I had picked up a picture and was showing it to someone. It was a picture of my mother and father and brothers and sisters and other relatives. It was a roughly 8″ x 10″ photograph, and my mother and a few others were standing away from the rest (off to the right, alienating themselves). When I picked up the picture, it had shattered glass on it! A very small piece of the glass got in my finger and I said to my wife, “Honey, I need to find some running water to rinse this off!” All this happened in the dream.
Now look at that! In a dream, the Lord had already shown me the problem of why I was in pain! I was in pain over my mother’s rejection of my father — how she stood far off in the picture, and that had brought me pain. The good news was that it was only a “sliver” in the dream — not that serious when compared with other types of possible wounds. At that point, when the Lord showed me this (as I was praying), well, you guessed it, I began to have peace once again. Both the physical, as well as the emotional and spiritual pain that I had been experiencing began to instantly diminish!
Praise the Lord! 🙂
What is the moral of the story?
First, God loves us all and desires to have a wonderful, intimate, Holy Spirit filled relationship with each and every one of us. However, there are often “issues of pain” in each of our lives. God wants to resolve these issues, but how is He going to do it? He will do it as we learn to listen to Him and obey His voice. He knows how to do it, and the means will vary depending on the person and the circumstance. So it is incumbent upon us to really practice listening to Him. Notice how it was in my pain that I sensed the Lord speaking to me. Often it is like that. God will speak to us in our pain. We were not designed to simply live in pain forever. If we are experiencing emotional pain, we should go to God who can heal us. It may take some practice before we really learn what is “behind” all this pain, but it is certainly worth the effort that we will put into it!
More than simply wanting to resolve this pain, I believe that God is actively pursuing each and every one of us who believes in Him in order to resolve it. For example, He gave that wonderful dream to me during the night. But, look what happened! Because of the pain, I was “blocking out” the revelation that God had already provided!
Has God provided a solution to the problem that you are facing today, perhaps, without you actually knowing about it yet? I pray that you might pursue Him with all that is in you, so that you might know the truth — and, as Jesus said, the truth will set you free! (John 8:32,34)
Edited: Dec 21, 2012