My next door neighbour is approaching 83. His wife is about the same age. They are great people, but they don’t have a personal relationship with the Lord. Recently, I had a talk with them, while standing out on their driveway. We talked about the man’s brother in law, as well.
“They found cancer in his bladder – blood comes out when he tries to urinate. Sometimes there is no blood, but you never know what is happening inside.”
Then, the man continued.
“Recently, he tried to kill himself with a gun. But he couldn’t find the gun. His wife hid it before she died.”
Thank God for the man’s wife who had the wisdom to hide the gun before she died. As you can see, she must have suspected that this man might want to take his own life someday – perhaps he had even tried it before while she was still alive.
But while the wife was “wise” in hiding the gun, the problem with this man evidently still remains. He wants to kill himself. He doesn’t see his life as having any value. What’s going to happen after he dies? He doesn’t seem to know, or to care. Life has become worthless to him – a bother, hardly worth even thinking about. The best bet, he thinks, would be to kill himself.
Some people are like that. They think that unless all is going well, that it would be better off being dead. But that’s a big fat lie, and it’s also a negative faith statement on what you think God can do in the midst of the most trying circumstances.
When you believe that it would be better off dead, you are really saying that God is not powerful enough to bring something good out of your present day situation.
The problem, however, is with your “seeing” (in terms of your inner hope) and your believing. It is not with God.
You say that nothing good can come out of your life. But you are mistaken. And you are also insulting your creator and denying him the power that is his.
He has the power to make your life good, and to “resurrect” that which appears to be dead. But you must let him do that! You should not be as an unbeliever and proclaim that “life is not worth living”. In proclaiming that, you are proclaiming a big fat lie. And that lie will not help you or anyone else, in the end.
“There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.” (Proverbs 14:12)
While this verse certainly applies to more than suicide, suicide certainly fits this verse very nicely. It is a way that may “seem right”, but its end results in death. By committing suicide, not only do you kill yourself, but you kill any future possibility that God can, and will, do something tremendous and special in your life.
Now where is your faith right now? Is it on thoughts of suicide? You need to renounce that lie before it stings you! Do you want God to be pleased, or not pleased, with your life? The whole concept of suicide is to simply stop having faith that God can and will work all things together for the good. It is to take your life into your own hands, and to cease allowing God to make it into something beautiful.
The most crushed, the most despised, the most painful life, can and will be used by a God who is able to cause “all things to work together for the good to those who love God and are called according to his purposes.” (Romans 8:28) And, friend, that is you!
Today, trust him, and make him once again LORD of your life, by renouncing any thoughts of suicide, and telling him that you really do believe in his power to make your life into something beautiful.
He can. And he will. Just trust him!