“Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ” (Romans 5:1)
Without a doubt, I would say that even the most assured and confident person may well find himself feeling, all of a sudden, very insecure, given the right set of circumstances. Such was my own case recently, when I was exposed to a video of a dramatic performance that had been produced by our church this past Resurrection Season. The reason I felt insecure was because one of the performers was myself!
As I viewed the video, I found myself favorably impressed with everyone’s performance — that is, until it got to my part. When it got to my part, all of a sudden these critical thoughts began to go through my head.
“I’m slouched over”, was one thought.
“I look like my father”, was another thought.
“My what big ears!” was another thought. (I guess I do have slightly larger ears than the “normal” person … or is it me that is normal!)
On and on went the internal criticisms. Of course, I felt awefully insecure. I was judging myself. Interestingly, I had judged everyone else in the play with gracious liberality. I had no problem with the others. They all did well. But I myself did not. I hated myself. I was against myself. I couldn’t do anything right.
Now maybe your own situation is not quite like mine. You were not in a play. But in another sense, you are “acting a part” … perhaps it is the part of a husband, or wife, or mother, or father, or son, or daughter, or missionary, or preacher, or employee, or some other role. But you do not feel like you have done well. In short, you feel like a failure — just like I did when I saw myself on video.
Others around you, you have judged with gracious liberality. They have done well. They are successes. They are the “stars”. But in your own eyes, you yourself are a dismal failure.
Well, if you are thinking these thoughts, it’s time to find a chair to sit on, and just sit back, and close your eyes, and let God do the work that he wants to do.
Now let’s not deny that there are things that need changing. Yes, you could do better. You could be more mature. You could act more responsibly. Change is important, and no one is saying that you don’t need to change. But are you rejected by God because of these things, and are these reasons to get down on yourself? Absolutely not!
Sit back. Hold tight. And close your eyes. And allow God to love you for a minute. Everything is going to be all right. You are going to be fine. You’re not going to crash after all. God is going to keep on holding you safely in his arms. He loves you, my friend. Trust him, and go in peace.
Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you, my Peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27)
“And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace.” (Luke 7:50)