“That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life; (For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness, and shew unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us;) That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full. This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.” (1 John 1:1-7)
In February of 1991, while laying on my bed, and in excrutiating pain from arthritis, a thought like waves of the sea rolled through my mind for about 3 hours: “Arthritis is caused by condemnation and the fear of condemnation.” This was a clear, concise, statement, and it rolled in my mind for these three hours, and felt very supernatural, indeed. I was very impressed by the manner in which these thoughts seemed to be so clear, and how, for some reason, they made “so much sense” to me. It was like a light bulb went on, and all I could do was to agree that “this indeed made perfect sense,” that, indeed (because of many thoughts that I had been pondering prior to that point in time), that “arthritis was caused by condemnation and the fear of condemnation.” I KNEW I had a problem in these two areas. This had been made very clear to me even prior to these thoughts “rolling around as such.” I believe God illumed my mind that day, and then used the following set of circumstances to confirm to me that the thoughts that I thought that I had received that day were not just “made up in my head” but had actually come from Him. Here is what happened.
Months later, I had moved to Cambridge, Ontario, to get involved in a Vineyard Christian Fellowship Church (I neither endorse nor condemn the Vineyard Christian Fellowship as a whole, but I have found that some of their teachings are quite useful and biblical). During that time, I enrolled in a healing/teaching series called, “The Divine Plumbline,” produced by an Australian medical doctor, Dr. Bruce Thompson. The purpose of that series is to help people grow spiritually, emotionally, and, yes, even physically (as both the spiritual and emotional elements of a person’s life begin to take better shape). In that series, Dr. Thompson explained that, according to the Bible, there were basically “two sides of the pendulum” that could describe a person who was not walking in the light (or, in God’s word, or in God’s truth). The “pendulum of our lives” (like a clock pendulum), he explained, was supposed to be centered on Christ, hanging “straight down,” as it were, and neither swaying to one side of the pendulum or the other. (One side represented all of the sins associated with condemnation, such as anger, bitterness, malice, criticism, etc., while the other side represented those that were associated with rejection, such as fear, anxiety, self-pity, etc..)
According to Dr. Thompson, all of a person’s sins could be grouped into these two categories, whether of condemnation, residing on one side of the pendulum, or of fear, residing on the other side of the pendulum. Well, of course, having had that amazing occurence in the privacy of my own bedroom months earlier, I could not help but think to myself, “Hey, these two things that Dr. Thompson is mentioning, they are NONE OTHER than the VERY SAME two thoughts that rolled around in my head for about three hours way back in Montrel, before I had even heard of this teaching!” That, of course, impressed me. What’s more, strange things began to happen as I watched Dr. Thompson’s excellent (and highly recommended) video series: as I had done months earlier, but in a more dramatic way (see Sudden Move of God’s Spirit, Part I, ITG, March 6, 1998), I began to manifest the presence of demons right from within me! Yes, they were begining to “cry out” and become “hysterically insecure” as I watched the video series! Thus it was, that, as a result of this experience, it was confirmed for me that, indeed, the teaching which I had “divinely received” months earlier while lying on my bed in excrutiating pain from arthritis, had indeed come from God — the one who wanted me to get better! I knew that God had really spoken to me that day, and that it was not a mistake that He had said to me that my health problem was caused by “condemnation and fear of condemnation.”
In the midst of all of this, then, what was God really trying to say to me? I think, just this: that if I really wanted to “get free” and “break free” from this so-called “generational curse” in my family (which has affected my entire family, I do admit), then I needed to also “break free” from my tendency to both  condemn others, and  fear what others thought of me. This, really, is it. And, like Dr. Thompson said, that is the goal of the Christian life — to walk a straight course, so that the “pendulum” of our lives neither swings to one side (representing all those things that can be characterized by condemnation) or the other side (representing all those things that can be characterized by fear). For more information on Dr. Thompson’s excellent teaching, I challenge you, in love, to purchase a copy of Dr. Thompson’s book, “Walls of My Heart,” which is the “hard-copy” version of his [more expensive] video series.
Jesus calls us all to “walk in the light, even as he is in the light” (1 John 1:7). The reward for doing that, according to that verse, is that “the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.” If we are still feeling somewhat unclean, and maybe even sick in our bodies, perhaps it is a reflection that we are not yet perfectly walking in the light, even as he is in the light. The apostle John said this same thing, in yet another way, when he wrote, under the influence of the Holy Spirit, “Beloved, I pray that you may prosper and be in good health, even as your soul prospers” (3 John 2). I do pray, like John, that all those reading this selection will indeed “prosper and be in good health” — for this is God’s will for you, otherwise, it would not be written down in God’s word. But don’t forget the second part, “even as your soul prospers.”